Taking back control
Since we lost our daughter, I've been EXTREMELY lacking in the diabetes area. I rarely if ever checked my blood sugar levels. I might take one shot a week, when on a GOOD day, I HAVE to take 4.
I've been in denial for years about being diabetic. I grew up with a mother who has been diabetic since age 10 and a father who was diagnose in his late 30's. I know the disease. I've lived with it. I know what it can do and I've watch a grandmother die from the complications it can cause. Even with all this head knowledge, I've never let it become "heart knowledge".
I was diagnosed with Type II diabetes in 2007, 3 months before I found out I was expecting our son. I'd had very little time to get my diabetes under control but thankfully Kamden was born without any of the problems many diabetic babies have. I managed to get my A1C down to 4.2 which from what the doctor told me is a level unheard of in most perfectly healthy people.
So you see, I KNOW I can do it. For whatever reason, though, I have to (in my mind) be doing it for someone else. I can't just do it for myself. So let me introduce you to the people who I am doing it for until I get to the point I can do it for me.
My current A1C is 7 or an average of about 140-150. My goal by October 1 is to see it more in the 5.5 - 6 range.
I've been in denial for years about being diabetic. I grew up with a mother who has been diabetic since age 10 and a father who was diagnose in his late 30's. I know the disease. I've lived with it. I know what it can do and I've watch a grandmother die from the complications it can cause. Even with all this head knowledge, I've never let it become "heart knowledge".
I was diagnosed with Type II diabetes in 2007, 3 months before I found out I was expecting our son. I'd had very little time to get my diabetes under control but thankfully Kamden was born without any of the problems many diabetic babies have. I managed to get my A1C down to 4.2 which from what the doctor told me is a level unheard of in most perfectly healthy people.
So you see, I KNOW I can do it. For whatever reason, though, I have to (in my mind) be doing it for someone else. I can't just do it for myself. So let me introduce you to the people who I am doing it for until I get to the point I can do it for me.
My current A1C is 7 or an average of about 140-150. My goal by October 1 is to see it more in the 5.5 - 6 range.
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| Kamden, who I know wants to keep his momma around for a LONG time. Jeff, my rock and my best friend, and Kaidance, who I'm sure misses me, but doesn't want me to join her in heaven any sooner than I have to. |
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