Just to Clarify
I was looking back over the posts I've made recently, and I just wanted to clear something up. I'm not depressed all the time. From the way I've been writing I'm sure it somewhat seems that way. I won't lie, my life right now is more stressful than I think it has ever been, but I'm not unhappy.
I enjoy school. It's time consuming, but I'm good at it and I really feel like I'm truly learning my craft and will be successful at what I've set out to do. Kamden is a challenge. We face something new every day it seems like. Then again, what parent doesn't? Every day for every child is a "first" day for them. There are new challenges, new things to be learned, etc. I just am realizing with Kamden that what is "normal" for one of his friends may not be his "normal" and that it's completely okay. His sweet and caring times FAR outweigh his hard times, and even if that were reversed, he'd be worth every second of it. He is my blessing, not my burden. At times I'm overwhelmed with the housework load when it takes care of 4 adults and one child. However, I'm grateful that I am able-bodied and can help my parents while my mom is down and unable to do her normal tasks. Financially...well, looking at it most days is enough to make me stress, but I have a roof over my head, food to eat, my medical expenses are covered. Really, it's not so bad. Who needs (truly) all the excess things in life? Sure they are nice to have, but I don't HAVE to have them to be happy.
That being said, I've decided to set some short term goals. I'm planning to do so with the changing of each season. Anyone care to help keep me accountable?
I enjoy school. It's time consuming, but I'm good at it and I really feel like I'm truly learning my craft and will be successful at what I've set out to do. Kamden is a challenge. We face something new every day it seems like. Then again, what parent doesn't? Every day for every child is a "first" day for them. There are new challenges, new things to be learned, etc. I just am realizing with Kamden that what is "normal" for one of his friends may not be his "normal" and that it's completely okay. His sweet and caring times FAR outweigh his hard times, and even if that were reversed, he'd be worth every second of it. He is my blessing, not my burden. At times I'm overwhelmed with the housework load when it takes care of 4 adults and one child. However, I'm grateful that I am able-bodied and can help my parents while my mom is down and unable to do her normal tasks. Financially...well, looking at it most days is enough to make me stress, but I have a roof over my head, food to eat, my medical expenses are covered. Really, it's not so bad. Who needs (truly) all the excess things in life? Sure they are nice to have, but I don't HAVE to have them to be happy.
That being said, I've decided to set some short term goals. I'm planning to do so with the changing of each season. Anyone care to help keep me accountable?
- Go for a 30 minute walk every day that the weather allows.
- Finish my semester with a 4.0
- Get Kamden into occupational therapy and start looking for a good school that will fit his needs.
- Get set up for a part time summer job.
- Stick to the budget that is set up for our family.
I think 5 things for 4 and a half months seems reasonable.
Those are good goals Tara! You are an amazing, capable woman with so much on your plate. But you continue to trek onward with the rest of us! Love you girly.
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