Saying Goodbye... (Part 2)
There's not a lot to say about the service itself. I was overwhelmed with the love and support and the number of people who showed up to celebrate the short life of a precious baby they'd never known. My dad officiated the service and he did a beautiful job. I held it together pretty well until he led the group in singing first "Jesus Loves the Little Children" and then "Jesus Loves Me". Part of me cried because of the truth behind the words and part of me cried out of anger. The last thing I wanted to hear on THAT day was how much Jesus loved me. I know it sounds weird, but at that point in time, it wasn't a comfort as much as it tore me to pieces inside. By the end of the service, there was an underlying peace, it seemed, and Jeff, Kamden and I released "balloons of love" to our sweet Kaidance. We'll never forget her, never replace her, and never stop missing her.
Ready to send our love
Tonight, June 13, 2011, we finished the area for Kaidi's memorial. For now, we have just the picture of she and Kamden up, but will soon have a picture of her individually as well. The wall art is a line from a song I have heavily leaned on since I was quite young. I'll post the lyrics below.
Trust His Heart - Babbie Mason
All things work for our good
Though sometimes we can't
See how they could
Struggles that break our hearts in two
Sometimes blind us to the truth
Our Father knows what's best for us
His ways are not our own
So when your pathway grows dim
And you just can't see him,
Remember He's still on the throne
Chorus:
God is too wise to be mistaken
God is too good to be unkind
So when you don't understand
When don't see his plan
When you can't trace his hand
Trust His Heart
He sees the master plan
He holds the future in his hand,
Don't live as those who have no hope,
While our hope is found in him.
We see the present knowledge
But he sees the first and last
And like a tapestry He's weaving you and me,
To someday be just like him
(Chorus)
He alone is faithful and true
He alone knows what is best for you
(Chorus)
When you can't trace his hand
When you don't see his plan
When you don't understand
Trust His Heart
[ From: http://www.elyrics.net/read/b/babbie-mason-lyrics/trust-his-heart-lyrics.html ]
This blanket was a gift from a good friend's church. Each knot indicates a prayer being said for our family.
Ready to send our love
Tonight, June 13, 2011, we finished the area for Kaidi's memorial. For now, we have just the picture of she and Kamden up, but will soon have a picture of her individually as well. The wall art is a line from a song I have heavily leaned on since I was quite young. I'll post the lyrics below.
All things work for our good
Though sometimes we can't
See how they could
Struggles that break our hearts in two
Sometimes blind us to the truth
Our Father knows what's best for us
His ways are not our own
So when your pathway grows dim
And you just can't see him,
Remember He's still on the throne
Chorus:
God is too wise to be mistaken
God is too good to be unkind
So when you don't understand
When don't see his plan
When you can't trace his hand
Trust His Heart
He sees the master plan
He holds the future in his hand,
Don't live as those who have no hope,
While our hope is found in him.
We see the present knowledge
But he sees the first and last
And like a tapestry He's weaving you and me,
To someday be just like him
(Chorus)
He alone is faithful and true
He alone knows what is best for you
(Chorus)
When you can't trace his hand
When you don't see his plan
When you don't understand
Trust His Heart
[ From: http://www.elyrics.net/read/b/babbie-mason-lyrics/trust-his-heart-lyrics.html ]
I am reading this as I am trying to pit Natalie down...and all I can think is why. Why is my little girl here. Why is your little girl with God. I know He has a plan and we aren't allowed to know every detail..I can only imagine how hard it has been for you and for that I am sorry. I am here for you for whatever you need. I will continue to lift your family on prayers.
ReplyDeleteThank you so much, Stephanie. I wish I knew those same answers and it's been SUCH a struggle to not be angry with God in not understanding why His answer to heal her HERE was "No", but all I can do is keep believing that He knows what He's doing and He's never failed us yet.
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