I am a Terrible Mother

Wait.  Hear me out.

It's likely something we have all been guilty of at one time or another, and it is something that many of us don't even think about being a potentially fatal decision, but it is.

As a mother, I do everything in my power to make sure my child is cared for, safe, fed, protected...or do I?  Why had I never thought about the decisions I make while in the car before?

I've been lucky in that I've never been involved in an accident tied to texting.  In fact, most of the time I strictly checked messages at stop lights.  Most of the time.  What about all those times that I didn't wait for a stop light or thought, "It'll only take a second."  I've had close calls.  Some of them have been with Kamden in the car, but thankfully most have been without him in the car.

It hit me this week that I'm endangering the life of my son every time I touch my phone while I'm in the car.  I could be the cause of his death.  I have lost one child due to circumstances totally out of my control and still never quite coped with the guilt tied to it.  How would I ever be able to live with myself if I were involved in an accident that took the life of my son and it was something that I COULD control?

I am sure not all smart phones come with this feature, but I have set up, and would encourage anyone reading this to do the same, an app that detects the speed of my car based off of GPS settings and will shut off incoming call and text features past a certain speed.  I never even have to worry about checking a message because the notification does not even appear.  

It can wait.  No text, email, or phone call is worth it.

http://www.itcanwait.com/all