Koopman Kraziness

Several weeks ago, I had the chance to sit and talk with a friend that I don't get the chance to talk to very often.  We both have toddlers about the same age and live two timezones apart, so coordinating talk times is not very easy.  The times that we do get to talk, we generally just have time to get caught up on life in general and the other bare essentials, but this particular night we got to talk for a few hours and it changed my life and my heart in ways I never expected it would. Around this same time, I had a status message up on facebook regarding not knowing what to do with my life.  She shared with me that she had been praying for me and felt impressed to share something with me.  She went on to tell me that I was already doing what I was meant to do with my life: loving and caring about others.  Deep down I was really a Mary and not the Martha I was trying so desperately to be.  (Luke 10)  I'll be honest, at first I was almost offended by s...

After a full week of 5-8 runny diapers a day, Kamden finally had a solid diaper tonight.  I took him into the pediatrician today and they were really baffled.  He had no fever, no lethargy, no loss of appetite or weight, in fact he had gained over a pound in a month, so they were as confused as I was.  Come to find out, there has been a nasty stomach bug OTHER than swine flu that has been going around and in some kiddos it's holding on for  2 weeks.  If that is what he has we're a week in with probiotics and BRAT diet on our side.  We are completely cutting out dairy with the exception of active culture yogurt for the next two days (minimum) and if things aren't better by Wednesday, we are going to have to take stool samples.  PLEASE, God, let this work.

It feels like life is catching up with me. I've been trying my hardest to daily "give it up to God" to "put on a happy face" and to "keep on keeping on", but it seems like that the last week has proven harder and harder each day to do so. The positive outlook I was able to sustain and approach my days with is either faltering or gone now. I find myself unable to face what I see in the mirror day to day and at least twice a day each day on the verge of tears. I'm tired in every way possible and I'm to a place where I'm not sure what to do to get back to my "happy place". I thank the Lord for Kamden. There are days that I know I wouldn't even try if it weren't for him... Sent from my BlackBerry Smartphone provided by Alltel