It's Gotta Stop
I have repeatedly said that I feel guilty over this whole situation. What I haven't openly admitted to, until tonight, is that I have turned that guilt inward and been punishing myself. No one who knows me personally jump up and call me when you read this or call 911 - I've not tried to physically harm myself. At least not by cutting or abusing pills or drink. Not by any conventional means. The only way I could think of to "punish" myself, was by not taking care of myself. For those who do not know, I'm diabetic. I am considered a Type II Diabetic however, unlike most Type II's my age, I'm solely on insulin injections rather than oral medication or control by diet and exercise only. Initially I was put on insulin injections because I became pregnant with Kamden, and the oral medication that I was prescribed was not safe for pregnancy. After delivering, we opted that I continue injections rather than go back on the oral meds, because m...