After having done all...to stand.

It feels like life is catching up with me. I've been trying my hardest to daily "give it up to God" to "put on a happy face" and to "keep on keeping on", but it seems like that the last week has proven harder and harder each day to do so. The positive outlook I was able to sustain and approach my days with is either faltering or gone now. I find myself unable to face what I see in the mirror day to day and at least twice a day each day on the verge of tears. I'm tired in every way possible and I'm to a place where I'm not sure what to do to get back to my "happy place". I thank the Lord for Kamden. There are days that I know I wouldn't even try if it weren't for him...
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