Koopman Kraziness

Dear Random Person - What makes you think that what you perceive of me in 10 minutes of being in the same room and not even talking to me is all that there is to me or is the truth about me? What right do you have to make me - to make my family members - feel inferior because you feel the need to make fun of and belittle us in front of your children? I'd most like to know...why?

Look at me You may think you see Who I really am But you'll never know me Every day, is as if I play apart Now I seeIf I wear a mask I can fool the world But I can not fool My heart Who is that girl I see Staring straight back at me? When will my reflection show Who I am inside? I am now In a world where I have to Hide my heart And what I believe in But somehow I will show the world What's inside my heart And be loved for who I am Who is that girl I see Staring straight back at me? Why is my I don't know? Must I pretend that I'm Someone else for all time? When will my reflection show Who I am inside? There's a heart that must Be free to fly That burns with a need To know the reason why Why must we all conceal What we think How we feel Must there be a secret me I'm forced to hide? I won't pretend that I'm Someone else For all time When will my reflections show Who I am inside? When will my reflections show Who I am inside?

Yes, Kamden said it today! He's learned SO much in the month since we moved. I can't believe what being around another baby his age 5 days a week has done for him. Since moving, he's done the following: (I know that some of these things don't have a THING to do with being around another baby, but it's been a while since I updated about his accomplishments, so here goes!) *Sitting independently *Pushing himself up to sitting from laying down both on his back and stomach *Clearly saying SEVERAL words (Mama, Dada, Papaw, Dog, Hi, Tuck (Tucker), Love, Jesus) *ENJOYING bathtime - this is quite the accomplishment. *Getting up on all fours *Army crawling to get any and everywhere he wants. I know it may not seem like much considering ALL babies do these things, but considering that 6 weeks ago we were being told that he was severly behind and would need extensive OT and PT to catch up, I'm rejoicing in the miracle of his life and his accomplishments. His entire life...

I want to preface everything I am about to say with this statement. I love, appreciate and support my sweet husband no matter where he is, what he does or what he decides to do in the future. It seems like my biggest issue so far with this whole deployment has to do with the fact that plans for expanding our family must be put on hold. At the risk of sounding like a baby crazed "Octo-Mom" type, I'm eager to have more children. It isn't that I don't enjoy and cherish the moments I'm having with Kamden. I love seeing the new things he learns every day and watching him grow into a handsome little boy. I know that during this deployment especially, Kamden is going to need me more than ever and that the time I spend with him will be even more precious and beneficial than ever. He is my world, my pride and my joy... Still, I desperately want to have more children. Jeff and I talked about this subject a week ago and he asked me if I wanted to try for another ba...

When I finally decide I want to sit down and write out my feelings, I've got nothing. Well, there's lots on my mind but it won't travel from my brain down to my fingers. I guess the best way to put it is things have not been going as well as I thought they would be. I'm trying but not doing so hot.