Koopman Kraziness

There are a handful of people who know most or all of these things about me, but I know that many of you don't.  I also know that you can be perceived one way due to how you write and the way you come across, so I thought I'd share a few "You might not know" facts with you. You might not know: I'm an only child. I'm terrified of clowns. I have a slight phobia of needles. I am diabetic. I have 5 tattoos. I am the youngest cousin on both sides of my family. I seem to be quite extroverted, but in reality I'm very introverted and prefer one on one or alone time over being with many people for long. I don't get mad easily. It's hard for me to show emotion. When I get mad, I deep clean.  Seriously...come get your car detailed. I can't concentrate on any one thing for long.  If I'm not busy enough, nothing gets done well. I hate having to talk on the phone.  H-A-T-E it. I'm terrified to succeed at certain things and terrified ...

I haven't written a "how I feel" post in so long that I'm not entirely sure how it is going to turn out or if I should even post it when I finish...  I guess we'll see. Kaidi would be just over 19 months now.  Most days I go through the day without thinking about it much, but Kamden has started asking a lot of questions about her. During his therapy session last week, we discovered that he thinks that Kaidi stays at the doctor's office and that is why he's always been so terrified of going there.  In front of his therapist, for the first time ever, I uttered the words, "No, Bubba.  Kaidi doesn't live anywhere.  She died."  I felt like my heart was being ripped apart all over again.  In fact, writing it now feels just as hard as saying it did that day.  Since then, he will approach me at random times and ask me, "Why did baby Sissy died?"  I can't just tell him anymore that she 'was sick' because he has now decided th...

You know how you make plans to do things when either you are on break from school or your kids are to get great things done?  Yeah well, I have a week until school starts and I didn't get my main goal done.  LOL  More on that later. For me, post holiday recovery includes a number of things.  I'm going to use this list as a double for my "to do" list for the week as well, so forgive the format, but I'll also try to throw in as many details as I can so that this comes across as an actual blog post. Donate clothing and toys/downsize in other ways - Even if you don't receive and excess amount of either as Christmas gifts, the holiday season is always a time for me to rethink the fact that I actually live my life quite excessively in comparison to those less fortunate.  I may feel the economic "pinch" in some areas, but when I look at the number of clothes that I own that I rarely if ever wear, the multiple bottles of different perfumes, lotions, sh...

I'm not doing New Year's Resolutions this year.  I know...  Now that the shock has worn off, let me explain what I AM doing.  I'm taking part in 101 in 1001.  The concept behind this is that you make a list of 101 goals/dreams/ambitions and have 2 years and 9 months (1001 days) to see them through to completion. I think this is a GREAT idea for a couple of reasons.  First, I'm a procrastinator.  Anyone who knows me for longer than 5 minutes knows this.  Once I do get motivated, I'm motivated well and get things done, but I'm terrible about putting things off.  With 101 in 1001, I have more time to complete my goals (especially those "little" ones we tend to forget about!) and see myself succeed.  Second, and along that same line, 101 in 1001 sets me up to SUCCEED.  I truly feel like, and not just with resolutions each year but in most all things, humans set themselves up to fail.  We set unrealistic weight loss goals for the ...