Koopman Kraziness

I joined WW and haven't really been sticking to it.  I've GOT to.  This is a huge chance to have an amazing life turn around.  It's just a matter of will power.  I've been succeeding at getting my blood sugars under control and that was just a matter of deciding I was going to do it.  I can do this.  I GOT this. Tomorrow I start working out again at the gym.  Life got crazy on us and we stopped going in March or so, but got paid up today and I got my own membership so I can go when Jeff isn't home (since his new job starts on Monday!), so I thought the best way to start over would be new measurements. Bust: 47.75 Waist: 47.75 Hips: 54 Bicep: 14.75 Thigh: 27.5 Last Weigh in was on Monday: 264.8

Apparently I have control issues.  God keeps placing me in situations that cause me to HAVE to wait or not have ANY form of control.  First, we endured Kaidi's pregnancy, diagnosis, birth and death.  None of it was within my control in any way, form or fashion.  Now, a year later...  We're talking about trying for another baby. But can we just start trying like a normal couple?  Nope.  That'd be WAY to easy.  Here's what we have to do in order to be "cleared" to try. My OB/GYN, Psychiatrist, and Diabetic Specialist have to all agree that I'm okay to try. The OB has to determine that I've physically healed and that I'm not just wanting a baby for the sake of replacing Kaidi.  He also has to assess the extent of my endometriosis. The psychiatrist has to determine and feel that I'm emotionally stable and ready to start moving forward in that area of my life because it will mean weaning off of all medications that I'm on for depression and...