Koopman Kraziness

Evidently I'm one of those people that has to get 2x4'd by God to get a point across.  I was hospitalized this weekend with mild diabetic ketoacidosis .  While ANY level of DKA is dangerous, I'm grateful that mine was caught right as it was beginning and not later on.  I laid down Thursday night not feeling too well, but thought I'd overeaten or just eaten something that was too rich for my stomach.  Jeff woke the next morning to head to work around 7 and I still was feeling extremely "off", but figured it was just gas (lol I figure I'll blame pregnancy gas for as long as I can milk it) or something else minor.  I went back to sleep only to wake up 2 hours later VIOLENTLY ill.  I'll spare you the the details, but I spent the next several hours vomiting every 2-2.5 hours.  (Just to put in perspective just how sick I was, I can count on one hand the number of times in my life I have been sick enough to vomit.  Even with the flu, I tend only to get...

I want to write.  For some reason though it feels like the words just won't come.  The ones that do come seem so unlike me, that I'm afraid to even share them.  I understand fully that we are by no means in a "normal situation" so that what I'm feeling and thinking is not going to seem "normal" either, but I feel like I don't even know myself anymore. Dear Baby K,  The nightmares started Saturday night.  Vivid, graphic, horrible nightmares of how the end will be for you.  I don't want to even write them out as they were traumatic to even endure once.  It was bad enough when they just involved you, but then they started to involve your brother too.  Watching him choke and being unable to get to him to save him, and in turn having to watch him die while he asked me why I wouldn't "fix it".  There are times my mind wonders to whether in your own unknowing little way you wonder the same thing...  Or if Kamden will wonder that after ...

I'm sorry it's been so long since I have written.  Things got hectic and crazy REALLY fast and haven't slowed down until today.  I may go back and do individual posts in more detail on some of the following things, but for now I'll give a general overview so you all can keep up with the insanity. *Monday, May 9th We went for what we found out would be our final appointment with Dr. H.  After doing a quick ultrasound scan that day and looking over the MRI and dictation from Dr. T in Dallas, she told us that it's really not necessary to see her anymore.  The ultrasounds are done primarily to keep an eye on things that they might not have seen in prior scans, but once an MRI has been done, the determination is definite.  She explained that continuing to have scans would put undue stress on me and that it was time to allow things to just "take their course".  She was quite compassionate and offered to meet with us before we got ready to try again to offer h...

There will be a new post here regarding both appointments we had this last week.  I hope it will be done by tomorrow evening.  We are spending our first night in the new place and I'm desperately trying to get boxes out of my dining room to make it useable! 

I'm not sure anyone even reads this one anymore, but for those who might, I want you to know that this blog is going to close one week from today.  Primarily the only things I blog about are the pregnancy and things with Kamden so I'll just move all posts to the Koopman Kiddo's blog .