Koopman Kraziness

I had a routine follow up with my OB on Thursday of last week.  There was nothing major done outside of the labwork for my quad-screening.  We listened to the heartbeat with the doppler and got a good solid beat in the mid 140's.  Dr. S. came in and simply said, "Well, how are we doing?" and the dam broke.  I smiled at first with just a hint of tears welling up and said, "Physically, I'm doing pretty well."  He walked over beside me and gently tapped my temple and said, "Just not so easy going up here, huh?"  I managed to not full on cry for a bit longer while we discussed what had gone on with the geneticist when we had seen her a few weeks before.  He asked me what she had told us, and I got flat out angry and spit back, "What DIDN'T she tell us, Dr. S?"  He looked down, tears in his eyes himself, and said, "I got the letter...and....wow.  That was a lot of information for anyone to have to hear and I'd hoped she didn't...

During our pregnancy with Kamden, we faced some scary things as well.  At about 18 weeks, we had an ultrasound and my OB discovered that he had what looked like the beginnings of hydrocephalus .  We elected to have an amniocentesis at about 21 weeks in order to rule out spina biffida (which my quad screening had shown I was at higher risk for) and to see if we could find some definitive answers about the increased fluid levels in his brain.  Two extremely long weeks later, we got back our results.  There was no spina biffida present and no definitive answers about his "brain anomaly".  We met with geneticists and were told that it was extremely possible that he would be extremely delayed because the fluid was pooling into the part of his brain that dealt with cognitive development.  We were also told that he could easily have severe learning disabilities.  Once he was here, we found out just how wrong doctors could be.  While he did take...

Everybody falls sometimes Gotta find the strength to rise From the ashes and make a new beginning Anyone can feel the ache You think it’s more than you can take But you're stronger, stronger than you know Don’t you give up now The sun will soon be shining You gotta face the clouds To find the silver lining I’ve seen dreams that move the mountains Hope that doesn’t ever end Even when the sky is falling I’ve seen miracles just happen Silent prayers get answered Broken hearts become brand new That’s what faith can do It doesn’t matter what you’ve heard Impossible is not a word It’s just a reason for someone not to try Everybody’s scared to death When they decide to take that step Out on the water It’ll be alright Life is so much more Than what your eyes are seeing You will find your way If you keep believing I’ve seen dreams that move the mountains Hope that doesn’t ever end Even when the sky is falling I’ve seen miracles just happen Silent prayers g...

You know that saying, "Never assume anything.  When you assume it only makes an ass of u and me"?  I totally get that this week. On Friday, Janaury 28th, I decided I'd better go to the ER as I had been having cramps on and off that had turned into steady cramps that wouldn't stop.  They did a quick scan to just check heart rate on the baby and started me on IV fluids since they thought the cramping might be caused by dehydration.  About an hour later, I was told I'd be going down to the radiology department to have a full ultrasound scan done.  It seemed uneventful, but not long after I had gotten back to my room in the ER, my personal OB walked in...that's when I started to get nervous.  He told me that my amniotic fluid levels were VERY low and he'd feel best if I were admitted for a few days to push as many IV fluids as we safely could and see if it would help the fluid levels go up.  Over the next two days, we did just that, along with ultrasound...